i just feel like such a failure. and it just sucks.
i watched saturday morning conference and i felt so much peace, and was so inspired.
i've waited to watch the other three when i can watch by myself and take notes, but i just feel so crappy now. i want to be better and just be perfect instantly. i just want to feel good about myself.
like, why was i such a psychotic teenager? why couldn't i have just stayed a good girl.
but if i would have, i wouldn't have had atty and i wouldn't have grown as much as i did. i would probably be like a lot of the girls my age i see that STILL seem to be in high school.
i just really don't know. maybe after i watch conference i'll feel better. i hope.
"He doesn't demand immediate perfect, but improvement over time." The fact that you want to be better at all says so much about you! So much of the world just stays where they are without lifting a finger. I love you!
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